'In an ever changing world of gender, who knows what I'm going to end up being. But in the end, I want to morph into something I'm comfortable with.

Monday, December 09, 2002  

its still cold like fuck.
freezing away.
fingers are stiff..

can't login to msn.
can't upload pics.
argh.
nvm. tmr then.

talking to angel, jane and brov online now.
i miss them so much..
i wanna go back!!!
i wanna see my friends..
i wanna see my dearie!!!
never felt like going back to sg so desperately before.
i really, really, REALLY, REALLY miss maine.

waiting for dearie to come online..
sigh.. where is she???
i miss her.
talked to her just now.
so happy. i finally got to hear her voice
if i could, i would haf talked to her until i see her again.
but then.. the mother wanted me to put down the phone.
fuck it lah.

hmm.. just got a msg from her.
she's watching some taiwan variety show now.
said it makes her think of me.
heex. so sweet..
argh.
i need to go back to sg urgently...!!!

Darling, i miss u so much.
i wanna hug u.
i wanna kiss u.
i wanna be with u.
always.
just u, and me.
together.
for the rest of our lives.

i want maine. NOW.

muttered @ 8:00 AM.

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