'In an ever changing world of gender, who knows what I'm going to end up being. But in the end, I want to morph into something I'm comfortable with.

Sunday, January 19, 2003  

i'm back home.
mc for another week.
gonna haf to rest.
still giddy and pukish.
sigh.
anyway.
thanks to the peepx who sent their regards.
thanks to the peepx who visited me at the hospi.
esp phyllis.
its great that we're talking again. =)

sigh.
trips back to the hospi for checkups.
trips to the psychiatrist,
calls from the social worker every now and then.
no alcohol.
watch my diet.
yuck
sigh.

yeah. i was childish.
but.
i was not trying to kill myself.
didn't know what i was doing at that point on time.
none of this was germaine's fault.
please stop trying to put her down.
don't blame her.
she chose to leave.
i wasn't good enough.
i couldn't bring her happiness.
since she's happier with who she is right now.
i'm happy.

i'll just have to move on with life.
learnt my lesson.
'never to put all my eggs into one basket'
but right now, i still love her.
but give me time.
time heals everything.
i'll get over it.
-shrugs-

muttered @ 9:39 PM.

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