'In an ever changing world of gender, who knows what I'm going to end up being. But in the end, I want to morph into something I'm comfortable with.

Thursday, January 23, 2003  

i don't feel good.
nearly died yesterday.
was in pain.
war raging in the tummy or something.
so pain.
plus my temperature kept going up and down.
one moment i was hot
and one moment i would be freezing.
cold sweat.
ugh.
and it lasted for so bloody long.

nevermind at least i had mommy vern to keep me company with msges. vern loves me! -smiles-

poor angel of mine, still feeling sick. and she's hallucinating. smelling funny stuff all the time. one moment she smells bagua, another moment clinque happy. lolx. mad girl. oh. and the cravings she has. wanted starfruit juice while i was at her place. so i told alac to try the foodcourt near her place. poor lac went ard the estate but to no avail. gave up in the end. but guess what? silly us, we were thinking of those freshly squeezed kind, but maine actually wanted those plum thingie kind. those bottled kind. lolx. madness.

anyway. to whoever thats cursing me and maine, the curse is working.

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Like a cold Summer afternoon
Like the snow coming down in June
Like a wedding without a groom
I'm missing you
I'm the desert without the sand
I'm the one without a band
I'm a ring without a hand
I'm missing you
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muttered @ 6:35 PM.

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ok. i went again todae.
couldn't help it.
she sounded so sick.
bought a get well balloon for her. ernie and bert. lolx. damn cute.
hope she gets well.
that girl can't breathe through her nose. and her ears are blocked. and she's running a fever. feels like puking. alamak. terrible.

oh. met a senior after that. walked around town.
hmm.. saw lots of ppl.
everyone says i look pale and weak.
eeks.
really meh?
-shrugs-
ok. actually i do feel weak. and i'm still shivering like fuck. and my tummy still hurts after i eat. i don't know why. damn. will haf to tell the doctor when i visit her next week. yuck. pui. sigh.

muttered @ 4:56 AM.

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