'In an ever changing world of gender, who knows what I'm going to end up being. But in the end, I want to morph into something I'm comfortable with.

Saturday, January 25, 2003  

ok. admitted to hospital again.
to the person who cursed,
yes. laugh all u want.
-shrugs-

had this tremors and flaps thing again on friday nite.
was shivering like a mad fuck.
like i was on drugs or something.
cold turkey.
vomitted foam. pui.
terrible.
i'd rather die than suffer this.
yuck.
i hate.

oh. it was not because of the alcohol i drank.
and it was not beacuse of maine either.

i've been having the tremors thing ever since i dunno when just that it was real bad that night. bet u all must be thinking i drank because i was depressed or something. nope. -shakes head- i wasn't. so dun worry. i know u all care and all. though i'm sad that we're not tgt. i'm glad that we're still friends. i'm looking on the positive side of life now. wad matters is that both of us are happy. I'm not going to do any of those dumb, stupid childish acts anymore. =) common, trust me k?

I'm up and running. and my rod's on the mend already. its going to be better, i'm gonna start catching fishes again. lots of them. and i'll pick the best. only the best. lolx. u guys can start helping me too.

oh yah. another thing. me and maine appeared on tv last nite!!! haha. damn funny. on some channel 8 thing. 'jiao dian' some jewelry programme. we were at sookee looking at rings that time. must have looked damn spastic. eeps.

muttered @ 8:25 PM.

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