'In an ever changing world of gender, who knows what I'm going to end up being. But in the end, I want to morph into something I'm comfortable with.

Sunday, January 26, 2003  

just got up.
decided that i shall go to school today.
poor weining's bored like shit there.
i'll go acc. her.

niwae. abt yesterday.
went out with mom.
walked ard.
met maine.
walked ard.
finally had my yami yoghurt. yum.

stupid tummy ache again last nite.
argh.
felt like something was gnawing on my tummy.
terrible.

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Everyday I realise that this might be the last day of my life.
Walking down the street,
I find that I’m coming closer and closer to losing my mind.
Because when it rains, it pours.
Isn’t life worth more?
I don’t even know what I’m hustling for.
You’ve gotta do what you gotta do,
Just to make it through.
All the hard times that’s going to face you.
Living will always be a struggle,
Looking for someone to love you.
Looking back at single horrors,
This madness makes me want to hide.
Slowly, internally, I’m dying.
Pillow case is wet from all my crying.
There is nothing more for me to live.
Take me away, I can’t live that life no more.

I’m just trying to get over .

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muttered @ 7:37 PM.

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