'In an ever changing world of gender, who knows what I'm going to end up being. But in the end, I want to morph into something I'm comfortable with.

Monday, January 12, 2004  

5-10 last night.
i shall not elaborate further.
anyway. i'm sorry guys.
and thanks too.

i'm glad i have such wonderful friends.
you guys mean the world to me.
thanks for everything all of you have done for me.
thanks for being there when i'm down and out.
thanks for the company during those lonely nights.
thanks for the shoulders. and the ears.
thanks for the support.
i appreciate it. really do.
i will never forsake u guys for anything else in the world.
yes u guys.
the groupie which i love. jean, alene, angel, jane.
and my momsie, vern. and cole too.
the ever sensible charlotte.
nix, garie, smalleyes.
peishi and lili.
the classmates.
and alac, kaew and liangyi.
and to whoever i've missed out.
thanks so much.
with you guys around, i have a reason to be strong and live on.

and to you.
i don't know how, but i'll try and drift away.
i'm sorry i'm doing this to you again.
i don't know what i want.
and i don't think i'm ready for a new relationship.
i kinda like life the way it is now.
i'm sorry.

and to you.
2 words.
good luck.

Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive with hopes this time
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows with tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you

// Gareth Gates - Say It Isn't So

muttered @ 3:45 AM.

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