'In an ever changing world of gender, who knows what I'm going to end up being. But in the end, I want to morph into something I'm comfortable with.

Saturday, May 01, 2004  

it's time for some mad rambling. my face is about 5cm away from the moniter. i'm not wearing my specs nor am i wearing my contacts. i can't see properly, the keyboard's a blur. i'm typing put whatevers appearing in my head. my eyes are going groggy. the screen's bloody galring. i'm tired but i can't sleep. my backs breaking from the 5 hours of sitting on that delifrance chair this evening. spent the day with jeannie choo sook yee. had yummy tom yum soup at thai express or whatever thats called. the one at holland v. there was this fucking noisy dog. some schnazer. i dunno how the hell youre suppose to spell it. whatever. just some dog la. yelping away like crazy. crazy fucker. making me jump with each yelp. yuck. so high pitch. worse then my screams. bleddy hell. no one's suppose to beat me at that. i'm best at that. vern momsie loves my screams. right? say yes. hur. ok. i'm really going outta my mind. mumbling all this. must be all the stress. my rooms in a mess again. packed it up nicely just last night. guess el nino's sister el nina visited this afternoon. she tore up my room. oh wells. shall pack tmr. i'm kinda lazy now. gosh, there's a pimple developing on my nose. fucking fucking pain. god pls make it go away. i'll kiss a frog to make it disappear. help help help. i'm squinting like mad. i cannot see. i repeat, i cannot see properly. but i'm too lazy to get my ass off the chair to get my specs which are hiding somewhere in the toilet. ok. i'm really tired. was lying in bed just now, trying to get to lala land to meet my princess under the passionfruit tree but that stupid gay boy noah whomi love terribly called to tell me all about his rendevous. he has apparently found someone that meets his expectations. he'll be going to indo on an all expense paid trip this friday. he's gonna leave me in the lurch. ah. dang. but oh wells. am glad he's finally happy. stupid boy wants to go monks on friday. rahs. boring. but oh wells. anything for him. love, where the hell have u disappeared to? i haven't seen u for a week. its too bloody long. quick. meet me pls. and manda, u owe me kopi. remember pls. i don;t wanna wait till kingdom comes. mom's in taiwan. bah. no shopping this weekend for me. hope she comes back with yummy clothes for me. which she never does. -whines. i shall msg her and ask her to get boxers for me. more sponge bob ones. oh i want type ones too. the girly ones. not the guyish ones. then i can share them with mom. hur. wanted to wear my new ones out today but that mom of mine wore them to taiwan to meet dad. tsk tsk. my hair's crap. i need to do something about it. but what. i wanna leave long. but if i leave long, i gotta where caps till dunno when. but if i cut and level it all, its gonna be uber short. jean said leave it along, trim or something. but trim also no use. still one short one long. stressed balls. i need 5000 stressballs to destress. i need to go shopping. i need buttons for my shirt. the one i'm proud of. i sewed it myself on friday morning in school. i need to buy mounting board. i need photo paper. i need this i need that. the list is neverending. ok. i'm really tired and i want to sleep now. i've been going on and on about i don't know what. pardon me pls. and to whoever's reading this now, i think ure totally insane. whatever i'm blogging now is utter crap. u must be freakingly bored to be reading my utter shit. the end.

muttered @ 10:46 AM.

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